Having a mini crisis. Everything is so meaningless. Money and objects and the shit we clutter our lives with. I’m angry because I’m letting my clothes and my possessions and my appearance determine my worth. But now I’m questioning it. I need to be more than this perfect life I’m trying to build around me. Because nothing is perfect. Everything changes from one millisecond to the next. I’m high above the clouds and then I’m plummeting towards the earth a million miles an hour. And all of this useless shit is impermanent; forever changing, slowly decaying. Why do we pour so much energy into things that fall victim to destruction? Hell, why do we even put ourselves under so much pressure to be ‘the best’ or ‘the prettiest’ or the smartest or the fittest? When at the end of the day we are bodies. Bodies don’t last forever. I’m not undermining the presence of a soul or a spirit. But rather the fact that we are all the same, really. Why spend our lives trying to get ahead of each other (assuming there is no afterlife) instead of bettering and helping each other grow and evolve and thrive? Why do we care who does life ‘best’? Why do we keep subtracting from our humanity and investing in our own destruction?
Half dark selfies. Perfect night. New moon. Yoga high. Feeling blissful. On the edge.
Applying for a Christmas casual position ( I know, two jobs and full time uni is dangerous territory) but I’m in desperate need for money now and its only temporary, plus uni will be over soon enough. Anyway because its been so long since I last adapted my resume I’m desperately trying to find it and went back to my old laptop. The SHIT I have on this is hilarious! Old diary entries and poems I’ve written scatter my documents. And oh how much you learn and grow in the matter of time…
WTF Are These Billboards For Real? http://raiden0615.viralphotos.net/wtf-are-these-billboards-for-real
The Sneakiest Selfies http://raiden0615.viralphotos.net/the-sneakiest-selfies
Today was THE worst. I mean I almost died so I guess it could have been a bit worse but oh I feel so stressed and sick and horrid right now. I think it will be a bath for me and an early night.